Are You Listening?
If you’re like me, and you’re trying to have conversations with God (ie: not just praying or talking or asking what next or whatever, but also trying to listen, or see signs, or what-have-you) you might find yourself getting rather frustrated at what could be considered “the silent treatment” from up above. The thing is, though, if you keep your ears, your eyes, your mind and your heart open, you’ll be surprised at how often God might actually be trying to get your attention.
I may need you to humor me on this one – it may seem a bit weird.
Last summer, as a joke, I colored in the “Fender” logo on my bass amp so that the “F” was black (and blended in with the background) and the “ender” was red. Essentially, I made it so that the amp said “Ender” on it. Around the Fall of last year, I thought it would be a cool idea to build my studio and live setups with Fender products and do the same thing to them, but soon after I realized that most of Fender’s products are in the cursive logo, unlike the “printed” one that I had colored in. So they wouldn’t just be harder to color in properly, but they probably wouldn’t get the point across. And, as it was, I really wanted (and still want) to build my setups with Vox amps.
Fast forward to this past weekend. After shopping at Guitar Center here in Nashville, (I bought a Novation Launchpad S 64-Button Ableton Controller for $109!) I was on my way out the door when I noticed something at the podium near the exit – a foot-long Fender logo that appeared to have broken, so that the “F” was missing and only the “ender” remained. I immediately asked the guy at the counter if this belonged to anybody, and if not, is it possible I could have it? After all, it’s my stage name. He said it was trash, and since he was in charge of inventory, he had to “throw it out”, so he asked if I would come outside to the trash with him to “help”. Once outside, he made a motion like he was throwing it in the trash, and then immediately tossed it to me.
I couldn’t believe it. Here I was, after having joked that I was going to paint in Fender logos to say “Ender”, holding an actual Fender logo that had broken and now said “Ender”. You may think it sounds silly (and it’s okay if you do, I get that) but it was very apparent to me that God had heard me, and that he was speaking to me. He was literally saying my name! And not my real name but my stage name. Or, in other words, he was calling me by the name that I want to go by – the name that represents by true goals and dreams.
He was acknowledging what it is I want to do, and urging me to proceed!
And he was doing it in a music store, after I had just purchased a product that I came to the store looking for on the hair-brained idea that I might find it on sale (which I did)! Now, I get you might be saying that I likely wouldn’t be finding a broken Fender logo in a movie store or a place where one might buy film equipment, but if God wanted to talk to me there, he would have found a way.
No, he was talking to me here, at the music store, essentially saying to me “Go, follow your musical impulses. This is where you should be going – this is right.”
Beyond that, I don’t know if any of this means I will be successful with my music or what will come of it in general, but I do know that this is what God wants me doing right now. So I will do it, and when the next bit of dialogue pops up, I’ll be ready to snag it and move forward.
So if you find yourself wondering whether or not you’re actually having a dialogue with God, all I have to say is that God is most definitely listening.